Hilly route in Salem with Jen and AmberD, 7:27 pace. Started slow and finished with a 6:49 mile. Jen is on fire and I'm having a hard time swallowing the fact that I just really can't help her train for CIM right now. But I need to do what is best for me.
The incredibly sad thing is this used to be an easy run for me and today I was literally dying. I'm into being authentic so I'll just state that I basically have every classic sign of overtraining right now. I probably have all year in hindsight.
Not recovering from workouts ever
not sleeping well at night
work/school/life stress elevated.
Oh not to mention basically peaking for 3 years straight without a single real break. ha! So overtrained.
Thus a decision must be made by me as to whether I want to weather the storm and settle for being a hobby jogger for the rest of my life. Or make an intelligent decision and take time off of running. If I want to save my body and attempt to compete again (which of course I do at some point) my disordered brain will make the correct choice.
I am planning to run St. George marathon because clearly I'm a complete and utter idiot. Just running with a friend trying to hit 3:35. After that I have a plan that includes a 3 x 5 foot rubber room, handcuffs, and A LOT of netflix.
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